Monday, 16 August 2010

Sick to stomach

Following on from my last post, today I sent a text message to my sister to find out what she thought about things.
This afternoon I received an email from her and it has made me feel really sad and almost physically sick.
She has said that she doesn't support what I'm doing, thinks I have anger issues towards all of the family and a lot of other things.
I know that it was never going to be easy for family to deal with my plans to transition. Her reaction has really upset me.
It would seem the fact that I've spent my entire life being as supportive of others as I can, tried to be a good brother, son, husband and father might have given me issues that need to be worked through. I've tried to be what people think I should be while keeping the real me hidden away.
I've spent the last 10 years trying to reach where I've finally got to. Now when I can't go on the way I have been she tells me what she really thinks.
If I'd never told her that I wasn transitioning then I wonder if she would ever have told me what she really thinks.
Somehow I doubt it.


  1. a big hug
    you are a good person
    i will end up travelling the same path.
    She is just a bit in shock, time is a great healer.
    i would take the email and delete it,

    i'm thinking of you, and you are doing the right thing.

  2. sissygurl belinda,
    I responded to the original email simply telling her that I loved her and our parents and have left it at that. I have received another email since where she seems to have calmed down a bit. I'm leaving things at that.