Wednesday, 12 August 2015

Wow!!

The last 8 hours have been rather interesting.
Rhys received his provisional driving license, its a temporary one for 3 years because of his health issues, DVLA will review the situation then. So with that in mind I've broken my decision to have an alcohol free August and had my wife pick up some wine and whisky, the latter being to celebrate Rhys finally getting a license after months of waiting.

After a large whisky and two glasses of red wine I think the alcohol hit me in a way I wasn't expecting. I found myself feeling a bit annoyed and down because stuff hadn't been done and we have my in-laws visiting tomorrow.

Strangely the thing that really hit hard was when Rhys jokingly made a comment that assumed I had a boyfriend.

I've made joking comments to my wife at times about having boyfriends but they've not been serious. However, over the last few days, she and I had been talking about our relationship, partly because of some stuff family stuff that's been going on but also because of my wanting to get a Gender Recognition Certificate and then a new birth certificate.

Rhys' comment stung a bit because I know that if I really, really wanted to then I could have a boyfriend.

I know that where I am post surgery my emotions are going to be up and down at times but I didn't expect it to get triggered like this.

The next few days are definitely going to be interesting as I deal with in-laws and fluctuating emotions if they don't settle down.


6 comments:

  1. Hi Jenna
    A boyfriend sounds a great idea!
    How fantastic to have that experience as the woman you always wanted to be!
    Love Kim x




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    1. It sounds like a great idea but it would mean that my marriage has broken down irretrievably, that or my wife has decided that we should look outside our marriage for intimacy and I can't see that happening.

      It would be an interesting experience but not one I really want at this point in time.

      Jenna xx

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  2. Hi Jenna,

    This is a difficult situation and these thoughts have often gone through my mind. I do not want a boyfriend, I have my female fiancée but the thought of sex with a man is sometimes in my mind.

    Whilst it might sound a great idea and fantastic to some, for you it is a different feeling because of being in a marriage. Having a boyfriend would not be a simple option.

    I have talked to Mandy about my feelings over this, because we are open enough to have that debate. Whether I take it anywhere, with her approval, is another matter.

    Emotions will be up and down for a little while longer honey, it took me about 4-6 months to settle down in this regards. You know where I am if you want to talk (although today I am out!).

    Lucy x

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    1. I think as women it's natural for the idea of being with a man to enter our thoughts. Unless of course you have no interest in men at all, which some women don't.
      My sexuality is fluid enough that I would consider being with a man but I would also consider another woman, it all comes down to how interesting I found the person.

      Being marriage does complicate things. It's a conversation I don't plan having with my wife, certainly not in the near future, and even if I did I don't expect her to approve.

      I think I'm lucky that my emotions don't seem to have bounced around as much as they could have done.

      Will chat to you soon xx

      Jenna xx

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    2. Sorry Jenna.

      I had wrongly assumed that your marriage would be over now that you are complete. If you find men sexually attractive, my post op friends tell me the urge to be with a man is hard to resist!

      All sorts of interesting possibilities for the future.

      Love Kim x

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    3. Hi Kim,
      We're still hanging in there at the moment and have no plans to separate. We've been discussing my getting my GRC and new birth certificate. I just need to look into what the legal status of my marriage and whether its affected by me changing things.

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